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skud ([personal profile] skud) wrote2014-02-20 09:10 pm
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Signs of an imminent gender swing

(for me)

* Feeling of "frumpiness" or general dissatisfaction with appearance
* Lack of interest in grooming/personal appearance
* Avoidance of social events that I have to dress for/increased "fashion crisis" before going out
* Formerly favourite clothes or accessories languishing or gathering dust
* Hairstyle ennui (eg. style growing out, not getting haircuts)
* Discomfort at compliments about appearance/grooming that highlight gender
* Unfinished craft projects/dissatisfaction with craft projects that are gendered
* Changing interest in craft/maker projects or styles of project (eg. from embroidery to woodwork or vice versa)
* Change in music tastes/listening habits
* Higher than usual body-hatred, avoidance of mirrors, etc.
* Avoiding photos, video chat, etc.
* Depression, general feeling of meh, eating badly, not taking care of life admin
* (?) Starting to self-identify differently eg. on forms/paperwork/in talking to people
* (?) More likely to mention my tendency to shift gender presentation to people

Noting these down for future reference. Just realised I've got all these going on at present. One of these days I'll get good enough at noticing gender swings that I won't take weeks to go "oh, of COURSE".

So yeah. I seem to be a month or two into a feminine-to-masculine swing. The minute I realised I got up off the sofa, went and dug out some trousers and a sports bra and put them on, dumped some feminine stuff in the laundry or in a "to be put away until next time" heap, and have about 300% as much energy. Time to make food/wash dishes/make a small crafty modification to my messenger bag (flower buttons: GONE.)

ETA: first masculine swing since changing my wallet name. All I can say is OH THANK FUCK.
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[personal profile] were_duck 2014-02-20 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 It always takes me a long time to notice my fluctuating gender identity, too. Making a list like this is a great idea--I'm glad you were able to self-identify what was going on.
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[personal profile] were_duck 2014-02-20 09:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I think many things are similar, some are different. I will think on it...
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[personal profile] synecdochic 2014-02-20 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
ETA: first masculine swing since changing my wallet name. All I can say is OH THANK FUCK.

\o/ so awesome to have your instinct there confirmed for absolute sure. YAY.

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[personal profile] badgerbag 2014-02-23 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
This also happens to me! Thanks for describing it.

I wish there were some way to bind that didn't make me even more aware that I unfortunately have boobs. Layers of shirts/vests helps. And I shove my few skirts/house-dresses/girly things up into a box in the closet.

Freshly shaving my head also helps a bit. and wearing my belt with leatherman on it .
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[personal profile] badgerbag 2014-02-23 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Long sleeved smartwool with tshirt on top = <3

i am eternally grateful to my friend shannon who showed me this amazing butchly/mildly-binding tip.
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[personal profile] geeksdoitbetter 2014-03-25 03:03 pm (UTC)(link)
oh wow

am all teary eyed now!

thank you so much for the new to me language used here

i can't wait to ponder my own list, and begin to take note of things i'd formerly assigned to my current level of depression and whether they could also count in the gender swing column

hooray for brains and the ability to ponder them! (seriously, the pre pondering days were the pits!)